Waiting...

I LOVE THE WEATHER!

Except here in Riverside.

Riverside buddies, anybody free for a movie anytime this coming week? Tomorrow night? Friday?

Vidding is soooooooooo unfair.

Either you put all this work into something and NOBODY looks at it or you put no effort at all and people love it. Whateverrrrr.

*me iz ranting*

But thank you to the people who DO care. It means something.

ETA: You another thing that pisses me off? McCain. Oh wow look at you picking a WOMAN to be VP. Wow that impresses me. I mean, I was all for Hillary but damn, now you have the vagina on YOUR side. I guess I better run on over and make myself comfortable in the Republican party. *eyeroll* No thanks. Politics just pisses me off. I'm sick of the white man ruling but I'm even more sick of them getting it WRONG.

Oh another thing, stupid hurricane is gonna like, turn the south into freakin' Venice. Well New Orleans used to be cool when I saw it.

One more dumb thing, I saw a commercial for some silver dollar bill that was supposed to like, be a collectible with the Twin Towers on it. And the dude on the commercial was like "It's a 20 dollar bill because 9 + 11 that you see on the sides here = 20".

*blink*

Wow.

So I'm never sure who notices me out on your flist these days. lol. Anywho, mine has gotten big and frankly, I just don't check up as much as I used to to know the happenings. So I did a big cut or defriending thingy today. Don't take it personally. Just wanted to clear things up a bit. Anywho I'm a bad LJ'er anywho. lol. But if you reallllllly enjoyed reading my stuff (ha unlikely) and still wanted to be buds then I have no problem friending again or something.

Phew! After like a bagillion years I have finished a video! It's not my best work but I worked with what I had to the best of my abilities. Anywho enjoy if you feel like watching!

Title: My Wide Eyes
Song: We Are Broken
Artist: Paramore
Summary: It's the one you die with that know who you are. A character study of Nancy Fitzgerald from 3x12. I own nothing. For the minor character study challenge at the Supernatural Video Station.
Length: 2:10
Size: 18 MB
Link: Vid HERE @ kk_twin
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List the ten moments you can't live without. These can be past, present or future. A memory of your wedding day or that moment you finally finish a story! Anything that makes your day brighter, experience on this rock of a planet that much better. Then tag everyone and their moms!

1. Singing my favorite songs: Comatose (Skillet), Run (Snow Patrol), Easier to Run (Linkin Park), Wild Child (Enya)

2. That moment I put credits at the end of a video

3. Laying down in bed--those first few moments are BLISS

4. That sharp first sip of fresh coffee

5. Reading/hearing a remarkable wittism at 3:23 am that makes it SO MUCH FUNNIER!

6. Singing "The Rose" by Bette Midler in my last choir concert at high school. There were much tears that night. Haha

7. Last day of school grades preschool and beyond

8. Meeting the people I can pick up a conversation in 5 mins or 5 years

9. Seeing/hearing ANYTHING that connects to my fandom at the moment

10. Swimming 5 miles in the pool, come home smelling of sweet chlorine, collapsing and writing until 4am. Life doesn't get better than that.

Tagging anyone on my flist who wants to do it!

Title: Sometimes It’s Not the Place
Rating: PG for potty mouth
For bouncingball67who wanted: gen, cute and schmoop, “Dude getoff me I'm good” , extra pillows, Impala, evil thing, Sam, Dean, awww! This is for you, girl. I'm so utterly lame but I hope it puts a smile on your face!
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Well I finished and posted another vid because it was for Kayla, I go so insane if I have a finished vid just SITTING there on my hardrive and I can't touch it and the fact that ,hell it was for the finale and soon enough the film is going to grow stale and not have that emotional punch to it anymore (not that I'm saying that *ahem* the boys singing in the car is EVER going to get old but just saying) 

Anyways, I have wrecked my muse again so now it's on shut down mode. Like after taking that last bite of a candy bar or that great post-orgasmic state. Yeah mellow and happy. Okay I had a point to this, the video! Duh. Watch it or not, I'm just happy to have it out here.

Title: Give You Away
Song: Little Things Give You Away by Linkin Park
Summary: A general episodic of the finale.
Spoilers: The finale.
Linkage HERE @ kk_twin

Also, got a question for some of you peeps out there. Is there any SPN related fic challenge over the summer? Something along the lines of like, big_bang or abouttwoboys or something with a lengthy word deadline. Just wanted to know and check 'em out if they existed. Hiatus is already killing me.

I need coffee.

*happy sigh* So glad to get this video out. I've been waiting for the finale to post and now I just can't bear to hold onto it any longer. Sorry if it's "too soon" or such. This has footage from the finale so fair warning to anybody who hasn't seen. I always adoreeeeeee feedback mah peeps. *smish*

Title: Missing (Remake)
Song/Artist: Missing by Evanescence
Length: 4:18
Characters: Dean, Sam
Spoilers: All of season three
Summary: This is how it ends. For Dean. A remake of my older video by the same title found here: Missing 
  
HERE @ kk_twin 

Title: Places For Breathing
Characters: Sam, Dean
Spoilers: S3
Summary: Sam and Dean. Driving on the road with two days left. They sing.
Prompts from  popcornleaderwho wanted Dean to start singing and Sam to join along and  just_ruthwhosuggested "Ghostriders in the Sky" sung by Johnny Cash. Thanks so much! (Title from Revis album)
Notes: I know I didn't do this story as much justice as could be possible but it popped out and I couldn't deny it.  Unbeat'ed. Unedited. Un-anything'ed. It's rough. (Other song referenced is 'Cocaine Blues' by Johnny Cash.)

 So this is as far as my meagre photoshop skills go.

I have made 6--oh si SEI icons from the last episode 3.14 of our very own Sammy Winchester + 1 lonely Dean just because. Just experimenting with coloring and dorky stuff. Below cut. Take a gander if you will because it will make me all fluffy and happy and *mwah* you back.

(btw THIS icon from 3x13 will never NOT be funny. Zomg partay!)

 

After much encouraging and whining (from my side) and long nights of burning old notebooks, I have written a new fic. Can I hear a happy chant? Boos? Oh noes! *runs away in madness*


Title: Lost, I’m Safe
Rating: PG-13
Summary: A year after Dean's clear, Sam goes. Dean thinks it’s lame.
Warning: Character death, language
Notes: For spn_goes_pop
Prompt: Breathe Me by Sia 


Fic HERE @ kk_twin 

So I know this icon is a little ill suiting. lol. But seriously F-CK this video just...I hate it when I don't have a big enough vocabulary to even BEGIN with saying how much I really really really effing loved this.



The Fifth Circle by sockkpuppett
MY summary: Go watch RIGHT.NOW.


I think the thing I just loved so much about this video is that she delved deeper into that little piece of demon in Sammy. It's just absolutely fascinating to me. Even though the show itself just TOUCHES on these things to entertainment purposes I think it's really interesting to take things out of context and get down and dirty with this stuff. Or that's just me and my brain having fun. ANYWAYS, go watch this. It's vidding at it's finest. People in this fandom continue to impress me with their insane amounts of creativity, hard work and a;wfja;szomgfuckingaweosmeneess:!L!:!j;


Why the hell are you still here?! Go watch!!

Smells like Volcanoes by
pheebs1 
Rating: PG-13
Characters: Ensemble
Summary:There’s a battle starting at the gates of hell – will anyone come to the Winchesters’ aid?

My thoughts: I JUST finished reading this so I'm a little incoherent but this fic is just masterful and EXACTLY how I want to see it all end (or begin) Everything--every section makes you breath in deeper and deeper in anticipation until you're left with an ending that feels so much like a beginning. Brilliant. EVERYONE (gen and slash lovers alike) should read this fic.

Excerpt: Ruby warned them this was a bad plan, she’d put it in as bare tones as she could....She had warned them against trying this but she’d known it would make Sam the leader she needed him to be.

This was just something I made to fill up the empty hours of the hiatus. lol

Title: Crossing Lines
Song: Ashielf Pi
Artist: ES Posthumus
Summary: A recap of season three thus far of SPN
Notes: Awesome graphic made by Kayla. Thanks again luv!



HERE @

kk_twin

Righty folks, now if the deep dark terrible stuff of this world disturbs you I do NOT encourage you to read this fic. There's torture, there's rape, there's ;a;weawe/aw!!! so MUCH here saying that it leaves me breathless doesn't even begin to.cover.it!

Dread the Passing by fleshflutter
Summary: A Man of God Versus the AntiChrist 
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: warnings for torture, incest, non-con, blood, misuse of religious imagery, and character death
Pairing: Sam/Dean

Seriously, you will want to run out of your skin and hide in a hole forever. This fic is masterful.

I'm calling this my favorite Supernatural fic ever:

There Is No Such Place by ygrawn 
Words: 4,000
Summary: There are days when even Dean hates their itinerant lifestyle.

 My thoughts: This story kinda stumped me when it came to coherent feedback. I love stories that show the boys as BROTHERS. Their little moments here and there that make their relationship that much stronger. So rich in details, it's sure to get you at least a little teary and 'awwy' at the end. I think this touched me the way it did because this is what I have with MY own brother. Maybe not some insane "I watch everything you do" sort of thing but we have that shared history, those secrets and jokes that no one else knows and while he's a fucking pain yeah I sorta kinda love the kid (dammit I said that aloud *angsts*). So ANYWAYS this is a beautiful piece of writing that I reccomend for all ye guys. Now go read and give the author the kudos she deserves. It's a-fucking-mazing.


(note: btw, sorry you can't see the link names in my journal. gonna get on changing colors later so bear with me :))

Vid is done! *runs around before collapsing*
Hardest vid I've had to do for a LONG effing time. Nearly killed me this week but I wanted it to be done before the break was over. Now I'm taking a nice longggggggggg nap.

Title: Impulse
Song: Lying From You
Artist: Linkin Park
Length: 3:05
Spoilers: Up to 3.12
Summary: : (AU) Dean’s been living a secret life their whole lives but when Sam starts to figure that out, he gets more than he bargained for.
Warning/Notes: This video includes non-consensual incest, implied rape, drug abuse and some disturbing images. Not intended for minors. This is all fake and fiction. 



 HERE @ kk_twin

So I said this was for my eyes only but whatever, I feel like sharing and caring and turquoise aka Maria and  alcoholic (ha!) aka Kayla encouraged me to post it so I shall.

Title: Run For Our Lives
Song: Run
Artist: Snow Patrol
Spoilers: Up to 3.12
Summary: There's nothing they won't do for each other.



Linky HERE to kk_twin

Because I had such oodles of fun last time being the object in which money flew through to charity, I decided to do Sweet Charity again. This time 'round, though, I'll be offering a video. The list of hos is slightly smaller this time from the last but the people are no less generous or talented and I encourage anyone to offer themselves up (because I know alot of you are amazingly talented) or to bid and give the goods to the charity of choice.

My specs: 

I will make a video for the winning bidder from the show Supernatural. I'll leave the idea or basic outline/idea to the bidder. Also, the bidder can decide on which song I will vid to. I'm open to all options: rock, pop, rap, country and even instrumental and if the bidder has a few for me to select from I'd appreciate that as well. In the case of Supernatural, I will vid Wincest or any het pairing with the exception of John/Mary, John/Ellen or Bobby/Ellen.

For examples of my previous vids go here: 

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Why do we do what we do or create what we create? Is it to reveal to ourselves a part of us inside that we cannot see without our eyes or is it the feeling that we get while we create or do it that makes it worth it in the end? What is worth? Is is that journey or is it the aftermath where we see our creation reflected into other's peoples eyes and hear what they have to say? Do we define ourselves by that alone or by what we make of that--what we percieve?

Someone has done the same thing you have, felt the same thing you have, heard, tasted, touched everything you will ever know and ever have so what makes us unique in these original experiences? One thing, we have our own pair of eyes and minds and souls that govern themselves and interpret whatever's out there by their own methods.

So are we what we create or is it what we create that defines us?